Like the title tells, I'm no longer going to use this dA account.
Information regarding where to find me from now on can be found later in this journal. If the wall of text intimidates you, just scroll down to the end of it. The important part is bolded, so it will pop out from the rest of the text.
I joined deviantART for the first time approximately 7 years ago. At the time my username was 7th-kitsune (inspired by a character called Kitsune from Love Hina). I was 14 years old and had a passion for anime and nothing else. I wanted to be Japanese and live in Japan and have a sweet little Japanese name and an even sweeter Japanese boyfriend... In other words, it was the weeaboo time of my life. Soon after creating the account (and deciding Kitsune was the perfect username for me) I fell in love with One Piece. Filled with excitement for this marvellous piece of pirate goofiness, I changed my nick to Kaizoku-Kitsune, "a pirate fox". I guess I was quite fond of changing nicks at the time - or maybe it had something to do with a teenager trying to figure out her identity, I can't say for sure - but it didn't take long before my nick-changing madness stroke again and made me add another extra name to my nick. I became "Kaizoku-Kitsune-Crow", a monster of a nickname I actually used for a week or so. Fortunately it didn't take too long for my angsty-hyperactive teenage braincells to realize the nick was simply too long (and not to mention very uncool). So I shortened it. Blended the names together. I was less than 15 years old when I became kkcrow.
kkcrow was the very first nickname I felt to be an inseparable part of my identity; I think there were times when I felt more like "kkcrow" than "Laura". And after years and years of ever-changing nicknames I didn't feel the urge to change it anymore. It was good. I loved it.
My teenage years went by. I joined dozens of different online communities and made dozens of new accounts to all kinds of sites I'd never use again. kkcrow was pretty much always an unreserved username and I made sure to use it everywhere I could. It was fine at the time, I thought, for I wouldn't use the name anywhere I didn't want people to recognize me.
Now, years later, I google my beloved nick. The amount of pages found is a bit too much, The stupid, hyperactive comments from the early years and the hipster-ish, egoistic nonsense from later years can all be found in the Google wonderland. And it can all be connected to me, my current self with my current identity. I just don't want the connection making to be that easy.
Of course abandoning my dear username won't completely erase the risk of my whole past being connected to me. It just doesn't make it so evident. I'm not ashamed of who I used to be, I just like my illusion of anonymity. And truth to be told: I don't feel like kkcrow anymore.
I'm writing all this, because it's actually quite sad to let go of the name. Feels like I'm moving to another city, away from my dearest friend. But it's something I have to do in order to feel true to myself.
I'll be making a new username. I'm not going to link it here, because it would kind of ruin the whole point of leaving this account. But if you wish to add me to your watch list or simply keep in touch with me, just send me a note! : ) I'll be regularly checking the inbox of this account for at least a month.
If you made it through the whole wall of text, I thank you. I also want to thank all my past, current and future watchers. Thanks for all the comments, favourites and pageviews!
"See you on the other side!"